I am So ready, just so ready to make some changes in my life. After my divorce about seven years ago, my weight has gone one way, up... I don't like what I see, I really do feel handicapped i social happenings because I feel so ashamed of who I've become. At the same time, I'm so angry at the "world" for making me feel so concerned about the way I look. I have two daughters, I really want to teach them the IMPORTANT things in life - where looks are only skin deep. (Okay, so maybe fat is a little deeper than the skin, but you get my picture)
Then there's the thing of teaching them a healthy lifestyle, while NOT being obsessed about weight. I think THAT's important!
I am changing my lifestyle, for ME - to feel better about myself, yes, definitely, but also to have a healthier lifestyle. I want my heart to pump for a lot of years to come, I want to feel full of energy and I want to be able to run and play with my girls.
i also want to change my lifestyle to be a good role-model for my girls. I want them to see that their mother takes good care of herself. I want us to be a healthy family, so that they will know what to do when they start a home for themselves. I want to teach them that it is more about healthy than looks.
I never imagined this post being so hard to write, I was just coming in here to tell you about my plans, to make them stick a little more, to have some witnesses, so that failing would be harder, but then thinking about other people in the same situation, I don't want to add pain to others out there feeling bigger than they want. I know it can be painful being big, you don't always feel good in social settings, and I don't want to add to that pain.
OUR VALUE IS NOT IN OUR WEIGHT, OR LACK OF IT!!!
But because of the reasons mentioned above, and because it is right for ME, I do want to make some life changes and I hope I loose some weight in the process. And I will document it here - to help me along the way, I can't fail now, I have the whole web looking (yeah, right, Tone - more like 69 people)
And this is my plan:
S - specific - I want to loose 20 kg, I want to be able to job 5 k and I want to eat LESS sugar
M - measure - same as above!?!
A - attainable - I think they are
R - realistic - weight - within next summer, running - within 9 weeks
T - as above
I have joined a forum where I will write down everything I eat and all my activity.
I have started already to exercise for half an hour every morning before I wake the girls, five days a week.
I will start to collect healthy choices of food - I have some recipes already.
My food plan is LESS carbs, but not Atkins or anything extreme. I'm doing something I can live with - FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!
So wish me luck, please!
I will still be posting creative work and tutorials, I will also keep you up to date how my changes are going, what is working for me etc. I will also write more about being a single mother - because I think us SINGLES are doing a good job!
Right now I'm remodeling my kitchen, painting every surface... a room upstairs and tidying (throwing away) the girls toys. I just don't have much time for creative, but my fingers are itching, Angel drew a dress she wants me to make, so suddenly I'm back...
Getting the girls to bed, then getting ready for my early morning jog...